I have had that experience lately where you had an idea about something, faith in a situation working out a certain way, and when all the dust had settled, I ended up on the wrong side of my idea.
Disappointment has left me with nothing to say.
I am sure in the end, the grand scheme, it doesn't really matter. I have learned from my lesson and that's the most that can be said.
I am saddened to have learned that certain things in life are not as they seemed, and guess that sometimes until you experience certain things outright you still believe in chivalry and the likeness of it.
No matter, judgement has been passed and guilty is my shame.